it's been years since i did it but sometimes i watch a video and then i hear a piece of music and then i'm like brought back to editing a video that i did years and years ago where i used that music and i remember my editing sessions where i added that song to it.
my choices of music in my videos were very important to me to the point where i had made this like eight minutes long video, and i decided to upload it alongside a bonus alternative version where what was different was simply the music. and i was amazed at how big of a change it made, and i couldn't decide which version i loved more.
that video was my last i made publicly, at the end of the 2010s. last year, i rewatched both cuts again, and yeah, i still can't decide. these are old videos that are outdated and most importantly i wasn't out at the time so yeah you'll never get to see that but, still, i was really proud of it, and even if i wasn't out at the time when i listened to it, yeah, my voice is different and so on, but i can hear that it's me. i've always been expressing myself through creativity and it's definitely me speaking there. it's kind of beautiful to watch, honestly.
but anyway, all of this is to say there is a song that is in this video in particular that every time i hear it used in another video, like i just did, i'm just taken back to editing that video and having that moment of high because i was so happy of how it conveyed perfectly what i wanted to convey, and while what i had previously done ended up as an alternative cut without that song which conveyed a completely tone, i loved both equally, for very different reasons.
i don't think i was a particularly skilled video editor or anything but i had grown to love the process itself and my craft was simple but i did put a lot of thoughts into it i did put a lot of my heart into it and yeah there was tons of little details that would go into the making of my stuff. all of these little details in the process it all meant so much to me
and that high of just nailing it, getting it looking and sounding exactly like you want. it's something i haven't felt in a long time that was very special for me about editing video. but, as i just said, sometimes i hear that song randomly in a video and i'm just taken back and i get to feel it again.
it's fun. relational memory is amazing.
